Dance & Volleyball(:

So this thursday i am going to start playing volleyball for a county team. i am kind of excited but then again i am not a big fan of who is on my team. i dont really know my coach all that much but i have heard she is a sweetheart so i am excited for that. all that matters is that i am playing a sport that i love with a passion. i would play for my school but.. i play field hockey (i know you probably have no idea what that is but just go with it) at the same time as volleyball and i wouldnt give up field hockey for the WORLD. anyways 20 minute rehearsals for dance start this week... i guess its a good thing except that we barely know our dance, or our spots so it will definitely be interesting. i guess its a good thing also because that means we are only about 4-6 weeks away from the actual show. -_- nerve wracking i know. im really nervous because i dont really know some of the parts in my dance.

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Anyone there?

 im not the sharpest crayon in the box (random metaphor) but yeah. i feel like a total idiot..im basically talking to myself..with no one listening.. no one to eavesdrop on my conversation.. with myself. is anyone even there? do you ever have those moments when you are talking to someone and then they just pretend like you aren't even there..and then you just kind of fade out of your story. well, that happens to me ALL the time. i hate when that happens.. i feel like the person i an talking to puts up a shield and blocks me out and im not important anymore. so yeah, im done rambling..sorry for wasting your time

another pointless entry from me

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In the Rain...

Guy- What do you dream about?
Girl- To be kissed in the rain. What about you?
Guy- To be the one kissing you.

You see this quote everywhere.. i just don't understand why its such a big deal to be kissed in the rain.. i mean its kinda gross actually because you two would both be soaking wet. yes, i do see the sweet side of it but still. i have daydreamed about that to but, i keep thinking about how gross it would be.  but seriously why is it every girl's fantasy, you could be thinking about many other things than just if a guy would have the nerve to kiss you in the rain.

(sorry, that one was random )  :)

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Memories

today i was cleaning out my room, and rearranging it.. and i found old notes from Westover and i found my old notebooks from 5th grade...i almost cried. i am currently texting one of my old friends from westover... she is going to make me cry..we are talking about memories from on the playground and at lunch, and our notes we passed during class (p.s. dont tell anyone) ;)  i really feel like i could cry right now... its kinda sad too think about how long i was there and then i just left everything, and everyone... even though i am happy where i am... i miss westover terribly. i miss most of the teachers, i miss going to chapel every thursday, i miss bible class...

(Sorry this entry was short)

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Fame

a few years ago..well not that long ago. i wanted to be an actress... i had my mind set on it for a while. but recently i changed my mind. who knows how many times i have changed my mind on what career i would want to fulfill someday. i have settled on so many things but they all just didn't please me the way i expected they would. i have always wanted the world to know my name as a famous actress.. such as Jennifer Aniston, or  Megan Fox, because you know exactly who they are and what movies they have been in, and what they look like. but when the idea went through my head the other day. i thought "what if they turn me down? what if im not good enough? what if everyone that i audition for hate me?" so then i thought about an alternative career option such as.. a writer. i've always loved to write. i have always tried to write a book, or a poem, or stuff like that. i have always gotten bored, and started writing. not the best topics ever but they were topics. (thats the reason i started writing this.) when dad and i went to dinner the other night he asked me what i wanted to do when i got older, and where i wanted to go to school. i told him that i had thought about being an actress but then i had thought about how hard it would be to get into the school i wanted to for acting...Juliard. so i kept thinking over dinner and i told him that i had thought about being a writer. and that i had tried to write books (etc.). and he told me that i should start writing a blog and see how i liked it.. and if i like the blog idea, then i would like writing. he said that the blog would get my "creative writing juices" flowing. well, so far it has worked.. i write on my blog almost every day now. thats why i have so many entries. :) sorry bout that. like i said before..i just get BORED. 


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Summer Day Dreaming..

i really wish i went to the beach more often.. i really want the sand to be stuck to my feet.. i want the pressure of the wave to push me down. i want the sun burn, i want to wear a really big shirt that flows so well that it doesn't touch my burning hot sun burn. i want it to be summer... im sick of snow, cold wind, rain, and wearing jeans everyday. i would rather have sunshine, warm breeze, thunderstorms in the afternoon when you are tired of swimming or playing outside, and wearing shorts and tank tops everyday.. i want to be able to go to the store with my bathing suit on, my hair in a pony tail, and a tank top and shorts over my bathing suit. im ready to beg my mom to wash my bathing suit so i can wear it the next day to the pool OUTSIDE. not the YMCA the real pool. im ready for sleepovers in the middle of the week. not having to worry about school the next day. i want to put my bookbag in the back of my closet for three months.. im ready for FLIP FLOPS! im ready to not have to worry what day, or what time it is..or what time i have to go to bed at night. im ready to have every window open in my room as i sit on my bed reading, or listening to music. im ready to go to emily's almost everyday. im actually looking forward to having to put on layers and layers of suntan lotion before stepping outside to go swim..

Let's just say I'm ready for Summer <3


(since every blog I've read has some type of signature thing they do every entry I think I'm going to also)

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What About Me?

remember in "amazing family and friends" and i mentioned a certain some one who hurt my feelings...well this entry is about that person.

i don't understand why you have to push ME down to get YOURSELF higher.. while all you are doing is hurting yourself more. you don't understand how much you are hurting other people around you while you prance around with your big ego. and what happened to i love you it automatically went to i hate you. you are not at all what i expected you to be. you were a total sweetheart when you loved me. but that all changed...i never thought it would be like this..i never thought we would be having those fights over why we broke up... you surprise me everyday....a new thing to be mad at everyday. you always have something up your sleeve to blame me for. you always get mad at me for "flirting" but you know what.... YOU DO TO. its so aggravating.. and plus you..you my friend..flirt with my BEST friends. that is just low...its a new low...  made just for you..only you are this low..no one else..

Thanks to nobody for letting me vent again(: